The harder I tried, the harder I'll fall, the more I'll lose my motivation. The more I'll lose myself.
thankyou jamie.





I'm lost in life.
I feel like a robot.


this year seems like a year for me to learn how to learn to be strong. but i just cant, i keep falling down and down. and each time the pain go deeper.

I miss the used-to-be karenn. the happy karenn, the one that go crazy.
I dont feel 'me' now. I feel so stranger to myself.
Chasing the goal that is to be succeeded but not i want to succeed.
I want to chase those goals that i WANT to succeed.
I want to study hard.

Karenn, how can you be strong, again?
I know I used to be strong, but the phobia, after falling down so many times.

sigh.